Question

[awest1217]

It really is a down day. I read a forgiveness book, and true forgiveness does take time, but the first part is really understanding what you are mad about. Identifying it specifically so you can let that go.

I am feeling better now. I just can't believe doing to someone what he has done to us. I asked him to get boxes and get the rest of his stuff sometime next week so I can rearrange before school starts again. Of course, no response. I am really trying to be polite, but I also want to just be done with his games too. If he doesn't want to be married anymore, then file and move out completely so I don't have to keep "storing" his stuff. It isn't my fault he hasn't saved any money in the past 15 months. He should by now have upwards of $10000 saved by now, but he is wasting it on who knows what (that is taking out him paying child support and his one bill). That would be enough for a small good down payment on a small house where we live. Even ours now which is 3 beds, 2 baths is going for 90,000 so he could definitely get a decent house, if he saved anything.

I am more frustrated with how naive and immature he still is, but when it comes to us, I really feel mad at myself for choosing him.

I am not hating him or anything. Just trying to move on. I know the bouts of emotions will come and go as the process continues, but hopefully we can do this smoothly and be done quickly so we both can move on.