My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

thanks, pup (!) and BeingMe. You're right--on all counts (especially men being braggarts!!)

I hate to "but" this...but how it feels is this: "here's a nice lady I see once a year. we have a great time, we converse at a deep level, we have a lot in common including how we see life. but I don't really have the time or interest to make this any more than an annual visit...but I don't want to say it because I don't want to sound unkind. so I'll check in every now and then and say something I know she wants to hear to maintain interest and not seem like a cad."

he may feel more connected, but I feel more disconnected now than I can remember feeling so far. and it's kind of a double-bind situation, because addressing it pushes him away.

re: planning one's life--it DOES seem like a lot of people DO have a plan, and it pretty much works out generally the way they had in mind, altho the details may be different. (or maybe that's just Republicans?! ;-) ) And I thought I was doing everything right, and boom!--what happens to most of us on these boards, the bomb from outta nowhere.

I should probably just focus on getting my life together, and being the best mom I can be, and let the whole Texas thing go...but I have very little support, and he has been very supportive over the past year and a half or so. It just feels like more than a friendship to me.