I know I need to controll my emotions always in this.
You make the dialouge about behavior that is unacceptable to you. It's not personal.
You have no transparency in your marriage. You both need to trust each other on what, where, who, when and why you do things. Your wife is lying to you, she has in the past and will call you controlling (BFD)when you go to set boundaries on her behavior. If she doesn't like it then it time for her to go - go read the "Setting them free" thread.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
