and Eric, at this point it's not pride. It's that I am becoming physically ill over the whole thing. I can't sleep at night, feel nauseous all the time, can't eat, have a daily headache. I feel like I'm betraying my principles because I'm pretending it's all ok. I don't want to become like him and not be true to myself.
He isn't the man I once knew..if he ever was. And he will never be that man again..whether he comes out of this or not. And who knows how long that might take. I could waste 10 years of my happiness waiting for his cheating, two faced a##. He's no better than Tiger Woods, or Jesse James or Mel Gibson..or any of the other guys who think that hurting people who have been there for you and given everything to support you, love you, try to make you happy..that hurting and betraying them is ok..it's just not. Of course I still love him, but I just can't let him do this to me anymore.
