She said she's fine sleeping in the same bed, but since she mentioned the possibility of moving the girls into one bedroom and sleeping in the freed up room, I wonder how honest she's being.
I understand that she's said she does not want me. Yet she's going to counseling with me. In Coach's immortal words, how can I tell if she is "all in?" Wouldn't the same doubts exist if we were separated, then decided to go to counseling? I guess she'd be acting differently.
My pastor had an interesting insight into her when I spoke with him. He said she "had more anger per pound than anyone he's ever met." When I mentioned that she had been abused by a family member as a child, he said it was obvious from her body language.
We meet with our MC tomorrow, so I'm not going to make any hasty decisions until after that session. I know what my gut tells me, and what my heart tells me. I just don't want to give up too early and make the demise of my marriage a self fulfilling prophecy.
