The intent was to snap him out of passive mode. That's why the more compassionate follow up note about how we were praying for him and for him to pray for strength followed: I realized it could be interpreted differently due to its brevity.
I sincerely believe that God speaks to use in many ways and through many people, and that we need to be very careful assuming that God wants us to be martyrs in a situation when it conflicts with basic mores about right and wrong.
M-47,W-40,No kids D-filed 5/27/2010 Piecing - 10/21/2010 -=Soon to be banned=-
Very good, L4S. I'm a coach, too, and have gained weight since my sitch three summers ago. I keep saying I need to either move one direction or the other, because right now, I'm NOT in good shape, but yet I have to run around on the ballfields with a bunch of 13 year old boys and it's KILLING me! lol
It was tough to see her this morning, but I survived. I also told her that unless circumstances changed I saw no benefit in me going on the trip. She tried to act unfazed by that, but when she was driving away I saw her wiping away tears. Just turning her over to God now while I solve my own issues.
Church was great! I am working my way back from a strained relationship with God since the death of my son and today was another big step.
Lunch with my other son and his friend was good, both food and conversation wise.
Time to mow the lawn. As Puppy said, this is a good time to spend some time praying for strength and courage.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
The intent was to snap him out of passive mode. That's why the more compassionate follow up note about how we were praying for him and for him to pray for strength followed: I realized it could be interpreted differently due to its brevity.
I sincerely believe that God speaks to use in many ways and through many people, and that we need to be very careful assuming that God wants us to be martyrs in a situation when it conflicts with basic mores about right and wrong.
I understood. No harm here.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
Big time revelation yesterday with the help of some tough love here. I am going to control what I control and leave the rest in much more capable hands than mine. Really shouldn't be any other way, just took me a while to shake off the scales.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
I need to somehow bottle up the way I feel right now for the days when I question if I am doing the right thing. Right now, I am more comfortable with myself than I have been at any point since she left. I kept busy today and have plans to do so tomorrow. It seems silly, but part of the reason for this post is for those days when I struggle and need to look back and see that I am doing the right thing. Good night all.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
Day two of no contact coming to a close. She brought the dogs home today. I went to supper when she texted she was on the way, returned home after she texted "walking out" a phrase I found fitting. I didn't respond to either text, didn't see a need. I spent the morning getting stuff done for my new job that starts in August, then met up with a buddy to play golf this afternoon. Have to admit my game has gone to hell right now. Different situations, but I understand why Tiger is struggling in his game. Hard to have the focus and concentration you need to be good. Tomorrow is a full day as well.
I feel better today than I have in a long time. Hope this keeps up.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
