Ok, i looked up. I had to find out how to delete her number from my phone. I deleted it. I dont know it by heart. I deleted her texts. I am deleting her from my heart the best I can. But I cant call her now. The number is gone. I am not expecting you guys to praise me or anything. Love makes you heart and head do things that you know that you should not. I really cared about someone that doesn't care about me. I am just having trouble getting that through my head. We were friends, I have taken her to surgrys, been marrried to, told her my deepest thoughts. This was my friend. She is not the same person. I just have to get that through my stupid head.
