QS, read sasha's post :

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2037333#Post2037333

She's the one who cheated and lied to her husband, he walked out on HER and wouldn't talk to her for months. He filed for D and told her it was over... He again dodged her for months.

NOW.. NOW he's agreed to start dating once a week... NOW... D still pending he's agreed to meet once a week to explore resolution... NOW

YOu need to read that post and see that it takes time to process when you attach blame to a spouse and finally accept that its not them, its you feeling miserable and you need to clean your own mess up for the first time in your life.