21 years of marriage hanging by a thread

[Chuck66]

Went out looking for her last night and finally got her home by 3 am. She is already up and gone at 7 am for work. She is sure she will lose her job. Still doesn't really want to talk to me because of the D. She said I guess you get the kids now. I told her I wasn't worried about the M I was worried about her. She said I guess you can bail me out today when they pick me up.

Mediation divorce at this time good? Will that not push her over the edge? I am worried about her harming herself. She has always been so in control for 20 years. I tried to tell her to not push me away and that I will help in any way I can.

She has access to money and wouldn't need to take it. She has $5k in her checking, $1k in savings, and $6k in a CD that she has access to.

She never has trouble falling asleep and the Fioricet is caffeine too. IDK...

I checked her phone to see who else she called in her time of need last night. At 12:30 am when she had called me from the Sheriff's parking lot crying and said she didn't want to come home yet. I figured she would rather be consoled by OM. She only called me and her mother and went the drove around in the opposite direction o possible OM's side of town. I truly believe their is no OM.

During that phone call she hinted that I had set her up which hurt. She hurt me last week telling her lawyer that she feared for her safety from me if she got her own apartment.

I am going to put my wedding ring back on. She has never taken hers off.

I have IC today. Couldn't have come at a better time.

Chuck