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[awest1217]

I am not going to do it.

Right now I am so mad. I know the emotions will come and go, but today i am mad almost to the point where I hate H and hope to never see him again. I have been through death and death is much easier than D because with D there is so much more pain to work through.

I told him the longer he draws this out the more i would resent him, and I do. I have absolutely no trust in him to do anything and don't respect him as a person at all.

I am just so angry today!!!!!!!!!

Today I am watching my nephew for a while, tomorrow I think i will go to my work and start organizing stuff there, Thursday i will go to church to start organizing stuff there, and Friday is fun day with S because H will have him for 3 hours Friday night and 10 hours on Saturday, but of course none of it includes doing the hard stuff like taking care of him.

I hate that I have to give up my most prized possession because he decided he didn't want to stay married. He honestly never wanted to be married and never committed to me once. He doesn't care one bit about S like I do, but yet I have to let S go with him. I understand that S loves his dad, but it isn't fair to me. None of this has been fair to me. All I did was try to be a good wife and mother and I get the short end of the straw. I can't believe I was stupid enough to marry him.\

Sorry for the whining, but this is all not fair, which I know you all understand because you have been there. I have done nothing to be treated so poorly.