My UFO (unbelievably fabulous observations)

[hoosiermama]

Thank you all for the support. D14 is no longer all that upset about the choir thing because she really likes this director (who is an absolutely wonderful teacher, and always very positive and upbeat), a boy she likes will be in this choir in the upcoming year (ugh) and she has the opportunity to tutor individually with the choir director in hopes of retesting successfully and then moving up when/if there's an opening. So maybe it's more my problem than hers...altho I just have a sense that she just doesn't have many expectations for herself at this point.

We had a good weekend together--got a spontaneous invitation to a free concert on the lawn of the downtown state park here, which was fun for both of us. It was nice to spend time with another mom--I really miss that. and the girls had a great time together. D14 and I also went to a Farmer's Market (it's more of a big community party, really) and before she came home from her dad's I went to the opening of a new shop in our little struggling neighborhood followed by lunch with some friends--3 other moms. That was very nice, but I burst into tears talking about D14 and the choir issue. They all know D14 and their kids have made them aware of the bullying issues, and they were all quite supportive, so that was great.

I felt, however, like I was dragging myself through the weekend, and I still feel like such a failure as a mom. This is just so different from how I had planned to raise my daughter, and I see such a change in her from before her father left. I wonder how different her life might be now if we were still together and her life was more predictable. I think I'm doing the best I can, but everything is such a struggle...and what if it's not good enough?