HELP! I am going crazy

[botanygirl]

Thank you so much Jeff. It helps. It is just that H and I have been together since high school...we only know each other. I must admit that when I went to university I did some silly things but I never slept with anyone and would never do that to him. All I want to do right now is go out and find the first person to bang! It is totally pathetic I know but I just want him to hurt they way that I am. I should just go to bed but I know that in just an hour he will be with her. It is making me sick. I think I know where she must live. I want to confront her but I know again it will do no good. I think she has a kid so now I know why he never wants another kid. He must be thinking of leaving me for her. He is calling her the pet names he used to call me. It is just gut wrenching. I just vomitted. I feel dizzy!