How do I save my marriage to husband in MLC?

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It was easier to understand why H didn't want me, to be anywhere near me when he was spewing hatefulness toward me. I could rationalize that it was the fog of MLC that had him THINKING he hated me. Now that he is being nice, I question if he is really even in a MLC. Maybe he is simply a WAS.

I am just having such a rough time lately and can't pull myself out of it. I know I am over-analizing and focusing too much on H, but I am in so much pain- confusion and loneliness...