The journey begins

[ClingingToHope]

I've spent most of my day on the phone trying to get through things. The more I talk about it the more I realize the game will play itself out. There's nothing for me to do now but wait to see what happens on July 20 ... and then go from there.

It's just so strange to have all of these financial issues and not be able to talk to STBXW about them. Now, I'm protecting my financial future and she's trying to protect hers and when it's all over ... then what?

So, so much good has happened to me in the past 12 months. I try to remind myself of that. It's so weird to be pinballing back and forth from despair to hope for the future.

I struggle with these twin images -- the look on D11's and D7's face when they find out we are no longer married. Then I think about the look on their faces when I tell them I have enough saved to buy a house and let's go looking.