I think exposure backfired?

[AntoniaB]

Well this is the second time I am ignoring a direct email to me from him. I am wondering what happens if I keep doing this. Like, I know him and I know his tendency to worry about me and this is a way he can probably feel that he is still doing something for me (which might make him feel less guilty) and so I imagine that after awhile of no responses from me he will start to say why aren't you answering me.

If it comes to that, do I continue to not answer? Is there a point where I do answer and what do I say? What do I do if he says at some point that he intends to come to the house and check on me since he hasn't heard from me? (he still has a key and is legally allowed to be here).

I have to say that NOT answering actually gave me some peace today. It's hard not to answer but I recognize now that if I did answer I'd only be sitting here feeling sick about what he would say back. By not answering I've avoided that. I feel like any conversation with him is a terrible setback for me at this point where he only drives home again that he is rejecting me.