If you want this woman back ever, you need to make sure you take care of yourself now and allow her to feel the consequences of her decisions. I have not. She called again today asking for money, yes, I sent her some. I know the answers to everybodyes questions on this site and then I don't follow it. I told her that I was going on with my life and she said that i should move on it would be the best thing, i never wanted to hurt you after I told her she broke my heart. All this in a text. I don't know if she loves me, she says she does, she says she is misrable, I told I would come get her but she hasn't ask for that. She told me I would never forgive her and I said I already had. I have to let this go but I am not. I am unhealthy. I am sick. She doesn't love me even though she says she does. I have to get that through my head. Yes, I wanted to die, I am still very unhappy. I will not take her calls anymore. She won't calll for awhile anyhow. Her husband grabed her phone when I texted, that is how he read it. I don't think that she is happy, but I don't think that she want to be with me and that makes me sad. I know pretty sure that her R will not work. I just make it easier by telling her how much I care for her to stay. That way she knows that I am always there. It is wrong and I know it.
