i didn't say no. i said ok. i'll talk to the ic about it. and i did. i worked on that part of me. discovered some interesting things. it wasn't as simple as not having that emotional connection. it was things my father had said to me in the past. my father once called me a whore when i went on my first date. that comment stuck to me my entire life. i was afraid to date. afraid to enjoy intimacy. because enjoying intimacy meant i was a whore. that my father was right about me. and it held me back. i could never enjoy sex because of this nagging comment in the back of my head.
after working with the ic, i now know that it's ok to enjoy it.
but my h will never know this.
He will never know if you don't tell him.
Would it make a difference in the outcome? It might. You don't know unless you try. It might make a huge difference.
