It's a defense/coping mechanism. You assume the worst so that you don't have to potentially hear it from the source.
and yet it's still not enough to give me strength to deal with the bomb droppings.
sigh. i suck at this.
That's because it doesn't work.
What would give you the strength to handle being served D papers?
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.