Soaring Solo 2010

[ClingingToHope]

This is something I'm struggling with too. STBXW is in most of my memories of my 20s and all of my 30s. I'm not too old to have kids again -- although I'd have to have to reverse a vasectomy to do it.

Still, for better or worse STBXW will be the defining relationship of my life. And much of it was unhappy. That's a tough realization.

Still, this is my life today, it doesn't have to be and won't be my life forever. Some day someone great will come along and when that happens that will be my life then. I just can't let this past relationship ruin my future ones.