New here, not sure where to start

[ericmsant2]

Tay

RIGHT NOW you are spinning. RIGHT NOW you are really pissed off. RIGHT NOW you are hurt. Yes this stuff hurts. RIGHT NOW it hurts like hell.

All of your emotions are...well...RIGHT NOW.

Listen for one second...How are you going to feel 6 months from now? How are you going to feel tomorrow? What is going to happen in 2 weeks. Do you know? Do you have a crystal ball?

RIGHT NOW YOU NEED TO FOCUS ON YOU. YOU need to keep your emotions under check. Your H is sick. You know this. You feel it and can see it. What you are not seeing is YOUR role in this. Know why? Because your every action, your every thought, your every response is based on FEAR. It is based on what your H is doing as opposed to what YOU want to do and what YOU can control. Now do you remember what I said about what you can control? You can control YOU. You can control YOUR emotions. I know....I know...how do you do this when you feel like crap. You do this by detaching. You do this by looking at yourself. You do this by letting go.

As Grace asked you...what will make you feel better. What is it? Post the list. Oh...btw...it is so easy to keep looking at your H instead of looking at YOU. It is so easy. So sorry about what I am about to say here. Really sorry but I think you need to hear it.

Stand up...put on the big girl panties. Realize that you are special. Realize that what you feel matters. Realize that YOU ITay...and ONLY YOU can determine what happens. Don't be afraid. Face it. I mean really face it. By turning towards the fear you will find the TRUE strength that is in you. I can see it in you. I can see it. I believe in you. Now get the F up and find something to do that take your mind off of this for just a few hours.

ITay - I've been through hell and back girl. Search my name and read some of my old threads. You can do this. You can. Just please (okay make that pretty please) stop focusing on your H.

BTW - can you tell us a little about yourself.

Here are a few questions...

What is your favorite color
What is your favorite flower
What type of music do you like
Best vacation you ever had
Where would you love to go
What kind of car do you drive
What kind of car would you love to have
Do you have a dog or cat

Tell us about who YOU are OUTSIDE of your M. Who are you Tay..Who are you?

Look inside...you'll find the answer.

God Bless
Eric