Do you see that you aren't thinking of ALL of the possibilities, that you assume and predict the worst?
Catastrophizing
It's a defense/coping mechanism. You assume the worst so that you don't have to potentially hear it from the source.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.