Hey guys, it has been a while since I have posted anything so like MSH I thought I would do a little journaling...
Last week was really tough, have not been out of sorts like that in sometime. The catalyst was that my ex took the kids to Chicago for an extended weekend with the OM (her sister's family went as well). I am still having a tough time with the OM factor and my kids. I know I need to accept this since this issue is not going to go away. She and the OM are getting married sometime in August and based on what my kids are telling me, they are planning on having a child together.
IMO this is a high risk move on her part. She is going to be 44, she has only been divorced for a few months (seperated for about a year)and he is 11 years younger. This could be the best decision she has ever made of the worst. When I start thinking about what she is teaching the kids about marriage and family I get sick to my stomach. I still have not met the OM and really do not see a reason to do so but really not sure on this. I do not hate him, but I do hate what he has done and what he represents.
My current relationship with the ex is probably worse than good. I do not like talking to her or being around her. She views this as me being mean...our persepctives are so different. I am still broken over the break-up of a family, while she is starting a new one. I am doing everything I can to be civil but it is still so dam hard being around her or even communicating with her via email.
