Thank you, all. I can't begin to describe how much I appreciate your support. I'm on an emotional roller coaster. I feel angry, sad, depressed, and confused. Sometimes all of them within a five minute period.

But I WILL NOT let her see me that way. I am a stone. I am firm. I am fighting for this marriage.

I'm terrified of the next steps. Talking to her parents is something I can handle. What scares me to death is her reactions. However, I believe in the experiences everyone has shared on these forums. This behavior of her's needs to stop. I just know that I'm about to see an angry side of her that I've never seen before. I'm terrified that this step will leave me with divorce papers.


M34 W35
S5 S2
T10 M6
on/off over the years including her A
Recently-
Nov 2015 bomb
Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling
Feb bomb
March-April Reconciling
May - bomb
Mid-May I tell her I'm done