I think exposure backfired?

[AntoniaB]

Ok help please. I have not been in contact for like 5 days or more. I got this email from H this morning (edited down a bit):

"I will be going away soon so I just wanted to check in with you and get back to you about anything that may need to get taken care of before I depart. I didn't call you because I was away when I got your message and I also didn't know what your plans were. I didn't want to call at an awkward time or ruin your mood if you were with friends.

I haven't been avoiding you out of malice or any such reason but just because I (and others) believe it is what is best for you right now. I will be leaving on Wed. morning and returning on the 20th. (This is for a trip with male friends).

I am busy today but I have a hair cut scheduled near the house Tues morning if you would like to meet. It's up to you. I'm not forcing you to make that decision rather I feel it is best to leave it up to you. If not that is not something you want to do that is fine as well. I hope you are adjusting and learning to enjoy life without me. Again, I'm sorry. I regret putting you through all of this."

Ok first of all I really dislike the fact that he is acting like HE is the one who is "going dark" because HE AND OTHERS think it's "best for me." Like I'm a child. That really angers me. I have stopped all contact entirely and in the past several weeks I might have only contacted him a handful of times and primarily regarding legal issues. I stopped the begging and pleading WEEKS ago. So that bugs me.

But other than that, do you see? There is just zero trace of this man ever wanting anything to do with me again as his wife. "I hope you are learning to adjust and enjoy life without me." I mean, how can I possibly save this marriage? I just don't see how I can. He has no feeling towards me. He is all cold. He loved me for 20plus years and just shut me out entirely overnight. I mean we were with each other SO MANY hours of the day before, and we were best friends, and it is killing me not to talk to him, but I guess it does not hurt him AT ALL to not be with me. I think of him every minute of the day and can't stop myself, and he must never think of me. This is truly awful.

Ok I guess that was my vent more than a question.

My question is what do I do? Ignore this, I'm guessing. Just ignore it. And as far as the haircut, well he is going to very likely park his damn car in our driveway to do this because it is NEXT DOOR. So should I be out of the house tomorrow at 9:30??