Completely Blindsided

[blind]

Time Heals: I do struggle thinking clearly at the moment (I think the anti-d's aren't helping with that too much)... but when I do, I KNOW I deserve to be treated better than this. I wasn't a perfect husband, but I was loving, caring and attentive. I never cheated on her, lied to her, abused her or let her down.

The dance classes are on 'term break', so my sleeping habits have been shocking. I didn't sleep last night.

Moon: The decision as to where to go is a really difficult one to come to terms with. I think I've got it nailed now... there's a small town south of Sydney, I can afford the rent, there are great dance schools there, and it's right by the beach. I don't know what work is like, but I'm a low level office administrator by experience, so it's not too hard to find work... people always need their phones answered.

The problem I have is that now I have no idea what I can do. This is supposed to be Divorce BUSTING.... I don't feel like I"m doing anything to help my non-existent marriage at this point.

I can see how I'm going to continue living with a life of my own. I just wish sometimes there was something I could do to FIGHT for my marriage.

There's just not. Bugger