i am acting out of fear. i am afraid of another bomb. i just want to protect myself. i don't want to be making any crazy posts like i did in the past.
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You don't want change. You just want proof that you were right.
i honestly don't even know if i've db-ed properly. i've GAL-ed, i'm semi-dark (other than squash, there is no contact).
i've been trying to read some posts to see if there is anything else i can do. but i feel like i'm already on d's doorstep.
everybody else is still interacting with their WAS or still living with their WAS. most advice being given are to LBHs and how they can win their w's back. and all of the LBWs are losing their h's.
there isn't any useful advice that even inspires me.
i don't bother thinking whether my h is watching me or not. i don't concern myself with that.
i am still promising to keep my post to you about me and what i am doing.
spent the weekend looking for appliances. i know women love shopping but i love shopping for kitchen appliances. don't worry. i won't go crazy buying top of the line stuff. i have a budget and will work within that.
i also switched up my exercise routine today. instead of going to squash tonight, i did a stairs workout. i was feeling self conscious about my lower body so i took my ipod, started on the 2nd floor of the building, two steps at a time, i walked up to the 18th floor. i took the stairs back down to the 2nd floor, and repeated. i came home and did some push ups and tricep dips.
i also had time to think about what i wanted to do for professional improvement. maybe join something like toastmasters.
and the last thing i thought about in recent weeks .. coloring my hair. nothing crazy but maybe a tinge of plum or chestnut brown. i am not sure if i will do this because i've never done it myself before. i am afraid it will wreck my hair and i'll end up with green hair. what's also holding me back is the fact that i am putting myself on a strict budget now. buy only what you need. nice to haves are not a priority.
