Well it has been almost a month since I last posted. My h finally picked up the papers on may 22nd after I signed thrm and after blaming me for holding everything up.... He twists and turns things so strangely. So on June 21st he asks me to come see him because he is "having trouble"... Turns out he had filed that day and doesn't know why he did. Really he said that. Then he told me that it has been nine months and he doesn't feel any different and I haven't been begging him to come home. I asked him if I told him to come home would he? He said probably....
Since that day he has changed and become mean and angry towards me. I am the enemy... He wants pretty much nothing to do with me he texted me early this morning... When I didn't respond he texted again. Apparently if he wants to talk it is important but not if I want to. He said he was going to come over and work in the yard. I was leaving the house. When I came home this evening he hadn't been here. He is such a loser lately... All he cares about is himself and I am most positive that he is still pursuing the ow. They are friends on facebook. I don't know what that means about the status of their R... Just so highschool. He is just a bundle of negativity and thinks nothing will ever get better. He doesn't want to talk with me because he will "break down" and that will upset him.
I really don't know what to do or even really how to communicate with him. Still seems impossible to communicate with him while ow is around....He is not in reality at all. I have a new therapist who really understands depression and how he feels and what is going on with him. I just try to remember that his feelings are real even if they don't seem real to me
M 35, husband 35 M 10 Limbo 9/2009-12/2010 he left for his moms and came home way to many times to count Home 12/2010-present