"first, i have no reason to believe that he wants to work things out."

He does not need a reason. You posted.

You let him control you. Even when he is not there.

I have no reason to believe that you can change things.

Other than you posted.. and raised your hand.

I "see" where you are going.

I want to change that.

You don't want change. You just want proof that you were right.

"so why delay the inevitable?"

Don't delay.. do it.

Go with what you know.

It has served you so well in the past.

Relax
Eat
Think
Act normal
React.. Smartly.
Do something different.
Emulate.
Do Work.

Lets get "RETARDED" in here.