How do I save my marriage to husband in MLC?

[RLay1100]

Today has been a bad day. I went to the house my H and I and our kids shared for 10 years to finish moving out all my and the kids' stuff. Most everything is gone from the house now since my H moved out three weeks ago (he hasn't made a payment on the place since we separated in April). There are so many memories in that place (good AND bad)...it is heartbreaking to see "we" are gone from it.
This evening H came to drop the boys off and actually stayed and talked with me for almost an hour. I did cave at one point and asked him if he was planning on filing for divorce. He didn't seem bothered by the question, and answered that he didn't know. We just stood silently looking at each other. He then admitted how confused and lost he was and that he didn't "know what [he] was doing from one moment to the next." "I understand" I said. I pushed it further (I know...I know...) and asked, "If you had the money to file for divorce right now, would you?" H gently replied, "I don't know." "Okay" I resigned. I tried to change the subject at that point, but H brought us back to it asking me, "Why? Are you in some kind of rush? You remarrying already or something?" I laughed and he went on, "I mean...it doesn't bother me if you have someone else..." I assured him there was no one else, and he rolled his eyes and let me know he didn't believe me. (::sigh::)
Luckily, I was able to change the subject quickly and we had a friendly chat. He did a quick check-up on my car for me since I mentioned it had been running poorly, and he even worked on my sister's vehicle while she was there:-)

The boys said that they had a good weekend visit with their dad. Our ten-yr.-old said he asked him the SAME question he "ALWAYS" asks them when he first picks them up from me- "So does mommy have a boyfriend yet? Have you met him? Come on, I KNOW she has a boyfriend...?" Friday night, H actually cuddled up with the boys and they watched a movie together. Our ten-yr.-old said that as they were falling asleep, his dad asked about my boyfriend. Who was he?

I don't understand why he is so concerned about if I have a boyfriend or not. He says he doesn't care, but then he questions us all and doesn't believe us when we tell him I don't.

I should be happy that we had a good visit this evening, but I'M not. ::sigh::