Still trying to find my way

[newmama]

For the record, you are not to blame for your son's reaction to this situation! Mystik, I haven't seen you do anything too damaging like
1)cry as your S is leaving, telling him how much you will miss him, making him feel bad about leaving you

2) talking bad about his dad or the OW to his face or his future half brother

3)neglecting his needs due to your depression

4)trying to mess with his schedule with his dad so that he doesn't get to see him

5)not letting him play with toys from his dad's house or be excited about the time he spent at thid dad's.

This list is just some of the CRAP that many parents put their kids through and that messes the kids up worse...for life.

So Mystik, excellent job taking him to the counselor tomorrow. You have not done permanent damage- if you are consistent from this point forward, it will help.

And yes, the daily goal for you should be to GET THROUGH this. Getting through doesn't mean accepting it and being happy or being miserable or angry...it just means surviving each day, not letting the bills go unpaid, taking a shower, taking care of your S, the basics.