Sometimes I just plain forget H is in a MLC state of mind, that there is a MLC state of mind. Then I have to remind myself that H never believed in PMS, that there is a PMS state of mind. H doesn't know he's in MLC though, I know when I have PMS.
H seems out of the tunnel for longer periods of time and then I think everything is going okay and then BAM A WALL is up.
I was going nuts driving into work this morning thinking this, thinking that, and then I read Vinlad's response and it all makes sense again. There's nothing I can do to help H through this, H has to come through on his own. It's not me, it's H.
I will definitely read up again on MLC stages. I was so busy reading survinginchicago's thread this weekend that I thought I was her
I am doing fine, I'm doing the best I can under the circumstances I'm in....withough going stark raving mad!!!!
I have Ozzie's song in my mind, the one where he starts out laughing manically. Crazy Train?
Crazy, but that's how it goes Millions of people living as foOLS Maybe it's not too late To learn how to love And forget how to hate Mental wounds not healing Life's a bitter shame I'm going off the rails on a crazy train I've listened to preachers I've listened to fools I've watched all the dropouts Who make their own rules One person conditioned to rule and control The media sells it and you live the role Mental wounds still screaming Driving me insane I'm going off the rails on a crazy train I know that things are going wrong for me You gotta listen to my words Yeh - h Heirs of a cold war That's what we've become Inheriting troubles I'm mentally numb Crazy, I just cannot bear I'm living with something that just isn't fair Mental wounds not healing Who and what's to blame I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
Okay so maybe it's not that bad, but it is just darn crazy sometimes!!
