What a mess. I told people H moved back, haven't told people H moved out again..can't decide what to do now. It's my own fault, I thought by telling people it would keep him home, silly me I should have known better. How pathetic and desparate was that.
Right now I'm detached, I'm done pursuing, I'm just going day to day with my friend, my H, who is living in Limboland, in the city of denial.
Friday night, when H went back to his hometown to hunt, everyone gets together to eat out. Well two of the spouses are freinds of mine and both were surprised that I didn't come up to hunt for one thing, H told them I didn't have a gun and didn't decide to the last minute to hunt (which is true) and now I have no idea what to tell them. They will both be pissed as hell that H left again and I really don't want to have to deal with it or have to explain anything to anyone anymore.
I'm happy, that's the important thing I think, and I am doing fine. I'm sitting back and waiting for the R with OW to fall apart, how long that will take I don't know. I'm okay though. H might stay with OW, I have no idea what H will do. I have to take care of ME and S, I am putting the focus on us for now.
