Yes, I wanted to provide my dd with a nuclear wholesome family. So what changed? I guess I just gave up and, being terrified that I was going to be alone and unwanted the rest of my life, I sought out the validation that it wasn't the end of the world, that someone somewhere would still find me desireable. There was also this sort of "hail mary" thinking that perhaps if H thought that I had moved on it would bring him around. You know, change the power structure a little bit and play the WS myself. Probably stupid.
I wish some of the things I've done would have brought my H around. Maybe I needed to be prepared to do this for multiple years . . .
