Sweetie, I'm going to say something I know you don't want to hear. It doesn't matter if he D's you or not, in his head, right now, he's probably single.
Snodderly is right, you do have more time than you think b/c you're in a panic.
You need to step back, breathe, make some goals and take one step towards them every day.
How about setting up an appt. for an atty this week? Do they have "free" initial consults where you are? You can also look up some info on the web.
That you want to pull the plug and run is a defense mechanism. Is that really what you want? I can tell you right now, that I have been a runner in the past. Doesn't help and actually has hurt me b/c of how I feel about myself.
