I returned home from work this morning and decided to txt W while she was at work. In the past I could remember W being concerned if I made it through a night of work safely. So I simply txt W and said "Home. See you when you get home" W did reply immediately to my surprise with "OK "
I noticed W had put her wedding ring back on.
W returned home from work, I was just waking up and greeted W with a hello and W said "hi" in return. It was not an 'excited happy to see you' greeting nor did it sound as if she had to say it, just a natural "hi"
W went and got changed then came and laid beside me in bed. I had every intention to giving W a hug (something I did not do too much of in the past). W laid in bed and did not even look in my direction, W then placed her laptop on her lap.
I said to W "I had not seen you in nearly 18 hours, thought I would give you a hug" W looked at me and then I said "I need to know if I am doing too little or too much"
W replied "If you do too much I am not going to believe it is real, I am not an optimistic person. You have to understand how bad yo hurt me in the past and it is not going to be easy for me to just act like everything is OK." I agreed with W that it is not going to be easy and I understand there is a lot of hurt.
W then started to look up more information about a trip she wants us to go on in October, right around the time of our 1 year anniversary to the same place we went to on our honeymoon. We looked a somethings together and had conversation about the possibilities of the trip.
I decided to get up and go get some breakfast and I asked W if she would also like anything. W said she did. I prepared a meal for us. W thanked me and so we sat and spoke about non-R things.
From what I have gathered W has a lot of doubt because of the past but has at least committed to giving us another chance.
W has not initiated any R talks and told me she does not like to talk about it.
I am looking for some advice, I don't want to ruin this opportunity.
M: 27, W: 25 Together since: 01/31/00 M: 10/4/09 (8 Months) ILBNILWY: 01/24/10 EA confirmed: 02/10/10 (Busted). Road to Reconcile began: 07/10/10 Retrouvaille: 09/10/10