Well I flew off the handle last night, but in hindsight I wish I could have controlled it. This is officially the "death of the past" for me. I can't and don't want to live like this. I'm up and down...I feel guilty for saying horrible things to her; then I feel good about it; then feel sorry; etc; etc; etc. Just too much BS.
There is nothing left to do but avoid her until I can get a handle on me. She's out there NOT losing sleep and thinking about new lies so I'm just going to avoid her. She's toxic.
