I can't sleep, maybe got 3 hours and I've never felt so sick to my stomach. I'm just numb and shaking. All I know, is I don't want to see her AT ALL.
The lies just have to stop. If she wants to move out, go out, and feel wanted by other men and feel attractive then just go, but don't sit on the fence and tell me one thing but secretly do another.
Oh well, guess I'll just go dark or something. I am very unstable right now.
It is very hard to detach yourself especially in the beginning of all this but it's precisely what you need to do, read the initial posts in this thread from greek and myself, you can't stop her, in fact any attempts to stop her from what she wants to do will only inspire to try harder and create even more negative feelings towards you, you need to detach and just open the front door of your house and let her be free if that's what she wants, give it to her, if you really love her, set her free - it sucks to be in this position but in the end, it is what it is and you just have to deal with it like a man.
No more phone calls in the wee hours of the night, arguing, ranting, etc. That's an emotional response which doesn't show strength on your part, it just shows you're hurt, angry and scared. You can do better than that.
This is an opportunity for you to learn a lot about yourself, about your situation, develop into someone different and better and lead a better life after all of this, it's not an overnight process, it's going to take some time and you have the benefit of a lot of wisdom from some great people on this site, soak up that knowledge like a sponge!
