I can't sleep, maybe got 3 hours and I've never felt so sick to my stomach. I'm just numb and shaking. All I know, is I don't want to see her AT ALL.

The lies just have to stop. If she wants to move out, go out, and feel wanted by other men and feel attractive then just go, but don't sit on the fence and tell me one thing but secretly do another.

Oh well, guess I'll just go dark or something. I am very unstable right now.