Had a good church service, and a good walk with our dog. Sometimes I think that my W has so much anger, so much bitterness towards everything. I know that I can't "fix" that, but it's hard to see her so miserable with life. Even before D-Day, she's always had anger issues, and that used to make me feel like a failure. Now I realize that I don't own that problem, that until she learns to love herself, she'll never be able to accept love, nor give it freely. And that's what I've missed the last 11 years.
I'm a good father, and taking care of my two D is so important to me. I want them to learn how to cope with their feelings, not be driven by them. But the W is their feminine role model, and I'd hate them to have the same issues she has. All I can do is be a strong, loving, affectionate father. And I am.
