The reason I thing he's going to ask for a D is because of the things he's been saying; I need to make a decision(about us, staying or leaving)-- it's not fair to anyone for me to keep making everyone live in limbo--this is a heads up, I'm going to quit my job, maybe next week-- there isn't anything you can do but to keep losing weight and get a job-- Now that you have lost weight and are getting your sh$$ together I feel better about leaving because I know you'll be ok--you're financially better off than most women I know--I'm getting close to figuring out what I need to do (if that included re-committing he'd be moving in that direction with me)--she's a good friend of mine and I care about her--I know we can't move on with our marriage when I'm still in contact with her--(but he won't stop the contact)--she's moved on, dating other guys, going to school. she's all alone down there and I'm just making sure she's ok, I don't like talking about it--my R with her is on it's way to fizzling out--I want more kids--I'm going to have a house like that again someday (not we)--I'm going to quit that job and take a break, work on my degree and just have a flunky 9-5 job for awhile--I don't want to stay here another winter--
those are just some of the things he has said recently. The signs are there, he just isn't in to this re-committing thing. He sees himself with her or someone else, not me. It's weird, cuz one day he seems to be inching ahead a little; complimenting me, a touch or a wink here and there..then the next day he won't even look at me and barely says a thing. It's like living with Jekyll and Hyde..I never know which one he'll be.
We did have some good moments yesterday. We got silly and laughed as we made up some goofy stories, like we used to do. It was fun. But he's back to his sullen distant self again today.
I hesitate to say some of the stuff I probably need to on here, because I stupidly sent him that link to that post a month or so ago. He could be reading what I'm writing, not that I think he is..but he could be. She is pretty computer savvy and is behind his locking the phone, and other technical stuff. He isn't really into computers or gadgets. She could also be on here, reading. Who knows, maybe he sent her the link I sent him and she's reading and telling him. I know it sounds paranoid, but I really shouldn't discuss financial and atty stuff, with that in mind. My private msg thing is disabled (not sure why) so I can't even ask you guys about some of that stuff in private. I didn't think ahead about all that..never been on a forum before so I didn't know what I was doing.
