Well, I did actually sleep about seven hours last night, so that is good. I am not looking forward to meeting her to trade off the dogs this morning, especially since I know that this will be the last time I see her for who knows how long. But I am strong and I know I need to GAL. I plan to tell her I am not going on the trip if circumstances remain as they are. I think that will be a surprise to her because I have really been pointing to this trip as a chance for us to be together and try to sort some things out. I now realize none of that matters as long as she is with him. Though my end goal is the same (save the marriage) my approach from this day forward has to be about me and moving forward in my life.
Only positive out of this whole thing is that I have been working on losing weight and getting in better shape since March and had lost 25 pounds when she left. Since then (18 days) I have lost another 19 pounds and am at my lowest weight in over 20 years. Now I just need to make sure that I get back to working out and losing it the right way.
M - 43 WAXW - 42 Married - 24 years Together - 25 years S - 23 - passed away 10/17/09 S - 22 Bomb - PA - 6/23/10 - WAW moved in with OM same night D-day - 9/17/10
