Ok, guys, mind blower here, help out. Ex calls me crying saying that she misses me and thinks she made the bigeset mistake of her life. I am playing golf. I text her and tell her much I care and how I will change and get her help and me help because we both need it. She tells me how much she loves me and misses me. I tell her how much I miss her and all the stuff. Everything, like I will be a better man. She said that I will never forgive her. I text her that I already have. That it was my fault for treating he bad. You guys know my story. I get a text later saying to never call again(i didnt call she called me) and that I messing with the family and never text or call or the police will be called. I ask who is texting me. Well I get a call from her husband saying I am messing with his family and to move on with my life. I told I wasn't. It made me feel good that she called, she was hurting, they are having problems because of me. I did text her but after she called me. She asked if I could forgive her and I told I already have and she said Thank God. Well, I still love this girl. I am not going to call her or text again. I know that I will get a call tomorrow from her saying she is sorry about her husband calling. What the hell. I am being stupid am I not. I should just let it go. I just really love this women. She is not good for me and she is married to someone she doesn't even know. I was her husband for 9 years. This is really stupid that some guy that met her 15 days ago is telling me to stay away. Hell, I am staying away. I just told her if she is happy then stay, if she is not come home. This is such a easy choice, just reading this makes me sick that I am so stupid to consider. I really love this girl and love makes you do stupid things. I am happy about this and I should be sickened that my ex wife doesn't have the balls to defend me. Maybe or maybe not. [censored], I don't know what to do. If Dbing is what we are doing. I want her back. I said I didn't. She is not good for me but I can change and I can and she will get help to change herself. But hell, she wouldn't even stand up and tell him how much she was saying she loved me. Does Dbing if you want her back just mean I should wait and play this out. Because I do believe that I will. There is no way they are going to stay together. They have been married for 15 days and the first 5 were spent with me. She will come back I am pretty sure. I want her. But is she right for me. I think that we were best friends once. I loved her once. She is not the same person but that person is still in there. I hope I told this story right because I need you guys help. She still loves me. She is scared to come back because I was a jerk but she is thinking about it. My plan is not to call or text just like I have been but she is going to call tomorrow to tell me she is sorry about her husband acting that way which he has every right to do. He is not wrong. I told her in my text that I loved her, I wanted her to be happy and i would change my ways if she came back. So, I really have no bitch with him. He is just defending what is his. But I did not call. She called me. She is the one that said she missed me, is she just a messed up crazy? I know she is not trying to mess with me. She is just confussed and thinks that she might need to stay with her mistake because she married her guy. What do I do. I do not need any tough love here guys. You know that I want her. I was ready to leave and get on with my life but it was killing me. Now that I have a chance, a slim one at that I am more confussed and happy, Scary thought, my codependancy is coming back again. I have to think about this but and I going to eat with my son but I will let you tell me what you think. Remember-I do love her-codependancy or not-she was my wife-we have a kid-she is screwed up on pills-I still love her-I have fun with her and she still gives me butterflies in my stomach when I see her after 9 years. I should get over it I know. I just do not want anyone new. I want her back, I want the girl I first fell in love with, she is not that person but she can change and would be willing to go to therapy, she love stuff like that. But, she is married. I did not call her, I left her alone and still will but she will call again. So what to do. No harse comments i need some compassion. This has been killing me even causing me to have sucidal thoughts, you guys know this. So no tough love but give me reality because I am not there. Should I wait it out or not?
