Wow, I'm stunned. When you decide to act, you ACT. Really proud of you! I know that wasn't easy for you, and tonite will be a restless night for you.
Letting them go, and turning them over to our Father is the hardest thing to do, I know. I still remember EXACTLY where I was, and what I was doing, when I did so. I was mowing my lawn, and praying as I often do while I mow, and there I was, in the 90+ degree Florida summer heat, and just kept mowing, bawling my eyes out.
"Here, you take her. I've done my best, Father," I cried. "You made her, and as much as I love her, you love her more than I ever could, and I know you will never forsake her. Please continue to soften her heart, and please take care of her until she decides to do so." It was a gut-wrenching sob, and very cathartic when it was over.
I'm a proud man, and God blessed me with a quick mind and a persuasive way, and I've always let my pride convince me that I could get people to do what I wanted them to do -- including my wife -- if I only combined just the ride words, in just the right way.
It was terrifying to think that it wasn't true, and that this time, I really DID have to "give it over" to God.
Pray for clarity, and for strenth, and discernment -- daily. He will not forsake you . . . or your wife.
