You know I wonder how the hell I was able to get on here so often when I found this place and now it's a rare occasion for me to come to teh boards. Where the hell does the time go right?
I think the problem is that I think too far ahead. I need to maybe start trying to live more in the moment instead and forget what is down the road.I am definitely staying away from serious until I get all this figured out. Not that I ever will
I am dating, sort of. I find that I date younger because it is just much simpler and the demands for meaningful communication are less. Sounds shallow when I type it, but it is what it is. I have been ummm hanging out with a woman lately that is a bit younger than me. The thing is she is a bit smarter then I expected. Turns out she is a Nurse Practitioner and has her act together for the most part. She is also divorced and has a child.
Her marriage left huge scars as well. So we end up having some fairly intense conversations and then we both sort of snap out of it and remember we don't really want to go there. Not sure how much longer it will last, I already sort of have those run and hide feelings. I hate that its what happens, but it is.
She came over and we rented some movies and such, just supposed to be a chill out night. Well Tawny came home from her friends early and walked in the living room where we were sitting on the couch together, just snuggled up. It was awkward. I wasn't sure what to say to Tawny, "This is my friend %$^&" is what ended up coming out. After she left Tawny basically laughed at me about the friend comment.
So, what can you do right I have at least gone back to the gym. That was a long time coming. I am tired of being out of shape. I figure maybe if I have a focus area it will keep my mind off other things.
I am also in the midst of dealing with a possible relocation to Atlanta. The owner of my company talked to me about it again on Friday. He is meeting with our client on teh 22nd and will know something mid August. There is a big possibility that I will end up in Atlanta by January of next year if I want to stay with this company. I am not opposed to it, I just am not sure how it will work with Ross. Just more crap to weigh down my brain with.
I have at least gone back to the gym. That was a long time coming. I am tired of being out of shape. I figure maybe if I have a focus area it will keep my mind off other things. 
