We haven't had sex since he started screwing her so STD is a non issue. He told me he didn't use a condom so he will need to get tested before we resume relations. Ya, like that's ever gonna happen.
He has also told me that he thinks it's an addiction and that it's exciting and dangerous, etc. But that he really didn't like the double life and sneaking and lying. He compartmentalized to be able to do it and still be around me without caving in.
He wants to go to the fair today..but it's going to be really hot and humid so I think i'm going to tell him I don't want to do that. I have some things I'd rather do at home. I'd rather give myself a lobotomy than walk around with him at the fair gawking at all the slutty skanky bitch@@s just because they're skinny.
It's weird the different moods an LBS has from day to day. After reading the stuff you guys write..I'm getting to a point where I don't give a sh$$ what he does. If he thinks calling her and texting her and sneaking around is what floats his boat..then he can do it. He can go and be with her too if that's what he thinks he needs to do. She isn't even half the wonderful person that I am and if he can't see that then F him. I'm mad today, it seems..mad and just plain tired..tired of dealing with this crap. I also feel like just crying my eyes out because it's so frustrating not to be able to reason with him and don't understand how he can think his behavior is ok.
I'll take your advice and not do anything. Not say anything. Just pretend like everything is all happy happy. I wouldn't have made much of a living being an actress, i'm afraid. I'm too honest. I just want to shake him awake.
This sucks worse than anything that has EVER happened to me in my whole 53 years. Even worse than growing up with no parents. Worse than having my first H be a cheating letch and alcoholic. He was such a great guy..my knight in shining armour.
