That sounds nuts. I was a cancer patient also at MDAnderson. I am glad i didn't have a wife like that. I understand the check list. She should be happy that you are trying. I would love it if my ex had such a list. She should see that as a compliment but people are different. I think many lbers remember only the good times in the relationship and WAers remember the worst parts. There is good and bad in all relationships. Keep working on yourself and make the changes to make you a better person despite what she thinks.