Why not, I have been on a date the last two nights with other girls. We had nice conversations and dinner. I didn't sleep with them. I didn't think about my ex or my problems, I just had a good time. I am not tricking them or fooling them. I tell them I just got out of a relationship. I can't keep going home and stare at my walls in my house and beat myself up over this like I have been doing. I am not trying to get in a relationship. Just have some fun and enjoy someone else.
Okay, your choice. It just seems like you're pretty codependent and need someone to make you happy. It just sounded a little odd seeing as how just a few days ago you were close to suicidal.
Good luck though.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
Why not, I have been on a date the last two nights with other girls. We had nice conversations and dinner. I didn't sleep with them. I didn't think about my ex or my problems, I just had a good time. I am not tricking them or fooling them. I tell them I just got out of a relationship. I can't keep going home and stare at my walls in my house and beat myself up over this like I have been doing. I am not trying to get in a relationship. Just have some fun and enjoy someone else.
I like it. They make a certain deposit into a certain part of yourself that is very hard to do by yourself.
I think that I am still sucicidal. The girl that I went out tonight told me something that really disturbed me. She said that i used to drink alot and that I swore all the time when we dated before. I don't remember being like that. Usually I was a pretty nice guy. I hope my ex didn't see me like that. That is what my first thought was. Oh well, it doesn't matter what she thinks (my ex that is) but I don't want to be like that. I don't want to be seen like that. As far as sucicidal-I am not going to kill myself but I don't care if something happened. It wouldn't bother me too bad. This is the main reason that I know that I am not healthy or well. I will keep posting and reading and maybe I will get better one day soon.
Sometimes we get mad behind these spouses and carry alot of anger. Sometimes we communicate with cursing and saying negative things. Be cool, focus on it being FUN. Don't worry about running within any tight confines or constrictions.
Have fun main and enjoy the beautiful female company and attention - it really is good for you.
And for the codependance-yes, of course I am. I do derive all my joy from others. I don't like myself. How do you make yourself starting liking you? I have not for years. I wash and clean myself but I don't think that I am worth very much, never have. This could have been a big problem. Maybe I will get all this crap worked out. It's to bad I didn't fix this along time ago.
Honestly, you are in no place to even think about dating. If you can't even like yourself why put all the burden on somebody else to make you happy?. You will keep falling in the same trap if you don't work on you. The longer you hold off on working on you the longer it will take and the more messes you will create.
Maybe not, it is really not dating. I am not kissing them, nothing but hugs goodbye. They are not staying in the night. They are not the next loves of my life but they are entertaining. I don't mean that in a bad way. But it is better than staring at the TV whcih has nothing on it. I am just killing time. It is harmless. Heck, my ex is married. I am not going to purposely hurt these girls. I have been honest with them that I am still hurt over a past relationship. They even ask me about it. Of course, I don't say the same things to them that I say here but my true thoughts are really not for them to know. I tell them that I am never going back which I am not.
Seriously man you really have to stop being so shallow when it comes to people's problems. par4me needs to get some help for himself first and dating is not the answer.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
