Nikita, thankyou for the hugs and your tact. We did know better days and I was looking forward to even better ones. I am sorry ur H is rewriting history - my WH also wanted the child more tham me. But she's a blessing, and I have excellent family support to be grateful for. I am glad your H is at least a good dad. As for your question, I think if you have said it, and written it, then it's OK to not say it again. Be proud you haven't reacted with extreme emotion... it's never a good thing. Yes I'm on the alt...how do I find u?