Hey Newmama, I wish I had your strength. I know I have said it before but you are really just so inspiring how you have managed to be the queen of dignity!
I have often wondered what would be worse: having WH here to coparent, or having him gone.

Part of the pain of having him gone, is knowing I will never (rarely) see him again. It's so final.

I feel if I saw him often, it would perhaps help me with closure because there might be more dicussions or whatever, or potetially counseling, I could be less bitter because I could see him being a good dad... but none of that is guaranteed anyway, is it?

Closure.. i want closure.. i want to know what happened, darn it!