I gave up...filed for D

[steady]

Luv, there's nothing you're going through that others here have or are going through. I still have those 'down' days once in a while. And although it's really no consolation knowing this, over time those days get weaker and further apart. I'm sure if you look back you can see this pattern happening.

I went through a short one a few days ago while on vacation. It was weaker and shorter than the last one - barely a small ripple.

Just remember this - the 'whorefriend'(WF) is getting the package you are looking at right now. He's not some improved version, or even close to the version you M. We tend to sit and think the spouse is some magnificent person to their new partners but they are what you are really seeing. No one can be two things at once. That crap you see and feel from him is in him all the time - no matter how hard he tries to cover it up when around the new WF.